So. It’s been a while. And a lot of emotions.
It’s been a revolving door of family and friends coming to see us, which has made it so amazingly refreshing. I felt isolated for quite a while, and I’m sure mom did too. We would never say anything because we’d never wanna be anywhere else but where daddy was, but yeah…. Seeing her sisters, his brothers and cousins, all of them has been more than wonderful. It’s all kind of bittersweet in a way though, because we do feel guilty that this reason for social contact is because…daddy is gone with Jesus…. It’s hard. But it’s been good. But not. It’s weird.
I tried to look nice for daddy on the funeral, I’ll admit that little secret. I got a haircut, put on makeup, wore a nice dress… I think mart of me wanted to kind of show that I could take care of myself. That I’m gonna be ok and be able to make myself presentable and look like an adult…. Sort of a weird thing but…I guess that’s how the subconscious works sometimes… Day after I looked like a mess but pressure was off so I didn’t care haha.
On the day of daddy’s service with 200 people in attendance. That floored me.
We had family, friends, church family, but what shocked me (in a good way) was the amount of SRP employees that came. Daddy had worked at Salt River Project for over 30 years, and had been in many departments and had made many friends along the way, and they showed up boy. They showed up in droves. And they were from both mom and dad’s side of the SRP lot too. Previous bosses, co-workers, and friends all came. And the flowers. The amount of flowers that SRP workers had gotten for him was just….amazing. Our church family came to our rescue as well. Days before daddy passed away they were bringing so much food. Food, food, food, food for days, as well as providing a free reception for us after the funeral.
But I have to say, what surprised me the most and warmed my heart was my sister and her in-laws. Jenn was already here when daddy passed, but her in-laws came in all the way from New York to support her. Like what!? Jenn’s mother-in-law, father-in-law, sister-in-law and boyfriend (who fortunately live here already) and best friend all came to be by Jenn’s side. And even ours! It seems like sometimes when families are brought together after being from such different backgrounds, there can be a sort of unspoken tension. Yeah that diminished a ton this week. They hung out with us, they cooked for us, they just did so much.
So yeah…it’s gonna be bittersweet and hurt. But…it’s gonna be ok. It’s gonna be ok.